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If you look at our lives from the point of view of investigating truth, often our lives are like this great big oscillation if you like, where we think we are harmonious with truth, we think we are on the right path. Then our doubts come in and then we feel down, we get a bit annoyed with the whole process. We ask ourselves “Whoever created this flipping
universe? Why didn’t he just come in and download the truth into me and get all this pain over and done with?” and so we go through this doubt.

Now, today you will have many doubts trust me. It’s not my responsibility to clear up your doubts for you by the way, but understand that doubt is different than the emotion which is the more satisfied emotion of discernment. What do I mean by discernment? What I mean is the ability to not yet make a decision, even though you are hearing
confronting things. So, what you do when you are discerning, is you let the stuff that’s getting presented, be presented to you. Then you use all of the things at your disposal and trust me, there are a lot more things at our disposal than most of us realize, to determine truth. The key is that we use all of those things at our disposal to actually ask ourselves questions like, “Is this the truth that’s being presented?” Now, what’s going to happen today is sometimes I’ll say something and you will have a doubt. That’ll be pretty often today trust me, because many of you have never heard this material before. Some of, what I say will actually create anger and so I want to make a contract with you. If you feel like you are angry with me, my feeling is you have broken this contract between you and me. I am giving you my time for free. I am not expecting anything of you; I am not expecting you to even listen to me. You can get up and leave at any time you wish and of course because it’s free, you are not going to lose anything except the time that you invested in this. So, if you feel that way, if you feel that you just cannot hear anymore, and trust me there are probably going to be quite a few times where you are going to feel that today, allow yourself to feel the feeling, and if you really want to leave, leave. My suggestion is to just go outside and express some of the fear and doubt or anger, and even if you want to yell or scream about it, that’s fine – I am perfectly happy. Then come back and listen to a bit more and see how you feel about that. That would be my suggestion to you, but you don’t have to do that either.

One thing I do ask you to do, is to own your emotions about what’s being presented. Now, in a group of a couple of hundred people, if a few of us don’t own our own emotions and we get really – an Australian saying “get your knickers in a knot”, before you know it, what’s happening is that a few are verbalizing that emotion in this auditorium. Rather thanasking a sincere question, they want to dump their anger on me because of what I am saying. What happens is this destroys the experience for everybody present. So what I would like to ask you to do is not to do that. I am perfectly
happy to receive your angry emails. I’ll give you my email address, just for that purpose, if that’s what you want to do. But in this presentation, just for the sake of love of others, you can allow yourself to feel those feelings and if you still feel them at the end of the day, I am very happy to hear from you about them.

The key is how we respond to truth inside of ourselves emotionally. If you feel any feelings of dissatisfaction; there could be times when you feel doubt, anger or resentment, you would be feeling what some people have called “triggered”. I
don’t like the term very much myself, but it’s a term that is used quite often now days for emotional triggering. My suggestion is to own those emotions as much as you can.

The first thing I would like to say is probably one of the most confronting things that you will hear today. How arrogant is it of me to call this session “Secrets of the Universe”? Well, a lot of people would say that it’s very arrogant of me to even present something like that, as if what I am about to say are the secrets of the universe. By the way, I don’t feel arrogant about it. I just feel very humble that I have learnt these things, as does every other person who has ever learnt them historically, but quite often, what we do is we judge others through our personal feelings. The truth is that what I am going to present to you are the secrets of the universe. They were lost many, many years ago, almost 2,000 years ago, lost to this Earth, and it’s only recently that they are being re-presented back to the Earth, and we will discuss why that’s the case. The reason why they are the secrets of the universe is that every single aspect of your entire life, from now on, whether you know it or not, is governed by these secrets.

I am talking about a whole wide variety of laws and truths that govern your life moment by moment by moment every single day. These are not religious laws, these are not political laws; these are laws that are a part of the universe that we are living in. They not only govern your physical body and how it works, they govern also another body that you actually have, whether you know it or not – the spirit body that many of you are starting to connect to in your own discoveries. That spirit body is governed by these laws too. But not only that, there’s a whole part of ourselves, which the majority of us are just in the infancy of discovering. That whole part is the soul. We’ll talk about that soul later, but, that part of you is also governed by all these different laws. No matter what you do in your life, no matter what you even say in your life, everything is governed by all these different processes that are going on. They are a mixture of what’s happening inside of you, and what the laws of the universe are all doing with regard to responding to you. What we’d like to do is present a summary of all of that today.
Now, today, I am not going to go into the nitty gritty of each particular thing. Many of you will have little questions come up, some of those questions will apply to the topic and some of those questions will be off topic. So what we are going to do today is leave the questions that are off the topic. I’ll encourage you to ask that question.
Now, that raises a few questions straightaway, doesn’t it? You feel a bit challenged about that? The whole feeling just went down a bit there and the first emotion was, “Hmm, I see that one. Doubt yeah”. There are only 3 possible choices
you would have with my saying that, do you know that? Only three possible choices!
The first possible choice which many of you right now would say is the most likely. That I am crazy and delusional. To be frank with you, I have done these presentations with many thousands of people and the majority of them feel that I am crazy and delusional, although in time many have changed their minds. The second possible option: What about this? That I am devious (or let’s be more frank), and a liar. That’s the second possible option. The third possible option has to really that I am telling the truth.
Can you see that you have got a choice of these three possible options? Now, I might be a nice, fine loving crazy and delusional person but it doesn’t change the fact that if I am not the person I am saying. Then I am crazy and delusional.
The truth is too, that I might not be a delusional person and I might actually be a devious person wanting to become some kind of a cult leader for you to follow. That might be the option. I am sorry if that freaks you out, but I can’t do anything about that. That’s an emotion inside of you. I don’t want to be a cult leader; I just want to be myself, that’s all I want be. The third option is I am telling the truth. If I am telling the truth, that’s going to be a problem in itself, isn’t it? Can you see that? How do I tell someone that I have just met Jesus? That’s going to be hard. How do I listen to this stuff with an
open mind when I have already made a judgment?

It’s not very important to you who I am if you think about it. It’s only important to me who I am. Can I reverse that for you? It’s not necessarily important to me who you are, it’s only important to you who you are – can you see that in your life? Now, each of us has an identity; each of us has a history; each of us has had a life; each of us has experienced whole groups of things in our entire life – have we not? That’s your life. If someone came along and took all that away and rubbed it all out, you would be very confused, would you not? Where would you be? You’d hope that that wouldn’t happen. Because it would create a lot of psychological confusion, trust me. It’s very difficult to actually not be who you are – although many would argue with that! How many of you are still struggling to be who you are? It’s something that we often struggle with. What I am talking about is an identity perspective. We all have an identity and my identity is no different to yours, in that it’s just my identity. It’s just who I am, it’s just my experience. My life is no more important than yours by the way, no more important than yours. You are just as important to this universe as am I. We both have the same amount of worth if
you like. So, my saying that I am Jesus doesn’t mean that I am saying that I am better than you – can you understand that? All I am saying is, that’s my identity. That’s who I am.

I would try to use techniques, or whatever, that would try to make you feel bad and then you’d listen. I don’t want you to feel bad about yourself. What I want to be able to do is present some truth to you. You don’t have to listen to that truth, and you don’t even have to believe it is truth. You don’t have to accept anything; it’s up to you what you accept.
I am very certain you will also find that out sometime in the future, won’t you? So, you can work through that emotion, if that’s what you want, and feel that I am going to, and leave these truths behind, just because you feel I might do that. That’s up to you. Century They felt lots and lots of powerful emotions and as a response to that, they couldn’t listen to what I was presenting to them. Just recently, in a different dimensional space than where we are here sitting here, they had stayed locked up with
that emotion. So, my suggestion to you is, don’t let what I say lock you up emotionally. Just allow it to pass through you. If you don’t agree with it, move on with your lives; allow other things to come to you. If you want to experiment with it, then by all
means experiment with it, and I’ll do everything that I can. I am already trying to do everything that I can to help you experiment with these truths. I wanted to do that, to tell you who I am, because from now on you will not hear much
about me.

What I want to talk mostly about is the Secrets of the Universe. I want to start with one of the best kept secrets of the universe. You will laugh perhaps when I say it’s the best kept secret, but it is actually, because very few people know this
secret, the secret of God.

Whenever I say the word “God”, what do you feel? What if I come from a religious background? Let’s say I have had a Catholic upbringing. My feeling might be straight away “Well God’s a punishing God. I don’t believe in the punishing
God thing, so therefore I don’t accept religion, and I don’t accept anyone talking about God anymore in my life”. As soon as we hear the word “God”, straight away we turn off. If we talk about God and we happen to be an atheist, what do we
feel now? “There is no God. What are you talking about? Why start a conversation on the Secrets of the universe when there is no God!” So that might be quite confronting. If I was speaking to a Muslim, they would feel that I’d be talking about Allah, the one true and only God. A Christian of course may feel that way too, although most Christians feel that God is three in one – God the father, God the son and God the Holy Spirit. There are all these feelings that are all different, all defining God.
If I was in the New Age movement, I’d feel that God’s within me, so I am God. You hear that all the time don’t you? “I’m God, your God, we’re all God – isn’t it wonderful how good we have got our lives together. God’s got her life together right? Doesn’t feel that way to me at the moment, so maybe that’s not true”. That’s what we are told, and so we
start to think that’s a good idea and go along with that. All these concepts that we have had bombarded at us, are all actually based around emotional injuries generally – all sorts of injuries. A lot of injuries are based around things that happen with our parents. So, if we have got an autocratic, domineering, punishing father, whenever we hear the word “God”, we will automatically, emotionally feel, “Hmm, autocratic, domineering God who makes this whole Universe, throws away the book and makes us live in it without any guidance”. So we may have that feeling. Some of us may have good feelings about God because we have actually received some things from God that we have enjoyed, so we have some good feelings about God, but to be frank, that’s a fairly rare thing on this planet. Most people have very, very rigid view points of God. So, I would like to talk about God for a little bit. For me, the longest discussion I like to have with somebody is about God. But most people can’t cope with too much of it at this point, and so what I’ll do is introduce God to you.

Love is an attribute of God, but love is not God God is an entity. God is not just an energy. You know that often we are told that God is love. Have you heard that saying “God is love”? I agree totally with that statement by the way – God is love. There is a statement that I don’t agree with and that is “Love is God”. I don’t agree with that. The reason why I don’t agree with that is because love is a quality of God. God the Entity has this quality, which is not only just an emotion, but it is a substance that God has – love. So, love
itself isn’t God because God has other qualities. God has the quality of intelligence, creative intelligence. God has the quality of wisdom. God has the quality of power. God has the quality of understanding. God has the quality of Absolute Truth. All these qualities belong to God but they don’t mean that Absolute Truth is God. It means that it’s one of God’s attributes or qualities. There is a difference between focusing on the attribute or quality and focusing on where that attribute and quality camefrom. So, when you look at God, my suggestion is, just for a moment, consider the possibility that God is actually an entity that has qualities and attributes, just like you are an entity that has qualities and attributes, unique qualities and attributes in fact. We could get all of you together and compare your lives and every single one of your lives will have similar things that might have happened. For instance, most of you would have attended a school somewhere, but what happened when you attended school and all the different interactions you had would have been very individual and unique.

Your Will


USING WILL IN HARMONY WITH GOD’S LAW
This Using will in harmony with God’s Laws And then lastly, one of the biggest problems we have is that we might believe all of these things are true intellectually, we might accept them all intellectually, but when it comes to exercising our will in harmony with these things, that’s where we fall down. In other words we don’t have a strong desire to truly be loving. We only have a desire to be loving as long as good things happen as a result. But something bad might happen as a result of us being loving, and by the way it is possible that something bad can happen from the result of us being loving because when other people are not in a loving RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD – PUTTING IT ALL TOGETHER JESUS (AJ MILLER)space sometimes they view what you do in a loving space as unloving. And so they have a response to that. So often times what we’re trying to do is we’re trying to exercise our will in harmony with self-protection. We’re not exercising our will in harmony with love or truth or humility or faith. Instead we’re exercising our will in a way that we try to protect ourselves from what is going on, what is happening in our lives: protect ourselves from any – what we see as future harm. We often are exercising our will in that direction only and we will under those circumstances compromise: compromise truth, compromise humility, compromise love; and many of us on a day-to-day basis still compromise love; we still do that. So if we were truly wanting to put it all together, what we would do is we would exercise our will in harmony with God’s Laws. That’s what we would do. That’s how we would exercise our will. We would not exercise our will out of harmony with God’s Laws, whether we know intellectually they’re God’s Laws or emotionally. As soon as we know intellectually even, without us being aware emotionally, we would want to exercise our will in harmony with what we’ve learnt. We would not keep giving ourselves excuses. For instance, one excuse that I hear from many of you is, “I’m not there yet.” How many times have you used that one in your personal life? You go, “I know that I should do this but I’m not there yet. I’m not capable of doing that yet.” And in particular we see that happening when it comes to telling the truth with other people. “I know I should tell my husband that I cheated on him ten years ago, but I’m not there yet.” In other words I’m not in the state yet where I feel like I can be motivated to do that and take the consequences. That’s really what we’re saying. We’re saying I’m not there yet because we’re saying we know that God’s Laws will all happen a certain way to correct our attitude and we don’t really want to engage those laws in the direct manner, and so we try to make excuses for ourselves. That’s what we do.Now they’re the primary parts of putting our relationship with God together: they’re the primary parts. Now it’s a very brief summary, of course we could discuss, and I have done for hours and hours on end, love and what love is and what love isn’t and all of those different things. We’ve got whole seminars where we did whole days of what it means to love another person; whole days of what it means to receive Love from God; whole days of what God’s Truth is. And in fact Mary and I will be presenting more information about God’s Truth over the coming months. About what is God’s Truth, what are the qualities of God’s Truth, what are the attributes of God’s Truth.Mary and I have already done humility. Like I’ve said, we’ve done five sessions on humility, called “Interview with Jesus – Humility” and talked a lot about what that is, what it looks like, what it feels like, how it is. Remember we’ve just done a series of talks about faith and prayer called “Relationship with God – Faith

via Faith that God is good and loves.

fear


Major areas of avoidance of fear
Now for most of us we have what I would call a fear tolerance level. Do you notice your fear tolerance level in the course
of a day? Most of us have a fear tolerance level. To be frank most of your fear tolerance levels are so strong that you’re in
complete denial that you have any fear at all on certain issues. That’s how strong your fear tolerance level is. In other
words your fear tolerance level is so low that you will not allow yourself to be conscious of any fear that you actually
have on certain issues.
And in particular there are two issues that are primarily affected by these choices and decisions that you are making
collectively. One issue is this – the issue of your relationship with God; your belief systems about God that you do not
wish to confront. The second one is your relationship with the other half of yourself, your soulmate. Remember that’s the
other half of yourself. And the third issue is yourself, which is your own soul. These are the three biggest avoidances that
you have inside of yourself about truth.

So when somebody comes along and talks to you about some kind of external truth, you go, “No worries, I can accept
that, that sounds really good, it’s a great concept, a great idea. I’m so fascinated about that area of study.” But when
somebody comes along and says, “Do you know that you are quite a nasty woman actually?” And if you’re a woman, not
a man, you’ll probably feel that as an attack on you, even though it might be true. You might be quite a nasty woman,
actually: but you feel it as an attack and so what you do is you don’t want to become conscious of that because you’re
afraid that you are in the end. And so what you do is you rub out of your life any awareness of your own self.
5.1. Beliefs surrounding relationships
Then when it comes to being single versus being in a relationship, many of us do not wish to examine why we are single.
We believe the main reason why we are single is because there are no good men out there or no good women out there.
We believe that it’s other people that are the problem; that’s what we believe. And if we are honest with ourselves the
majority of us who are single do believe that the problem is there are no good people to find – we do believe these things.
And why do we believe these things? Because we’ve got a lot of fear about this relationship that we don’t want to address;
we don’t want to expose; we don’t want the fear to be heightened; and so what we do is we deny all truth about it: and the
being we do that the most with is God. That’s the reality.
5.2. Beliefs surrounding having a relationship with God and how we treat God’s Creations
Many of you believe that a relationship with God is possible without having love for your fellow man or for the other half
of yourself or for yourself. So many of us believe that a relationship with God is possible even though we don’t like
ourselves, even though we have a problem with the opposite gender or the same gender, depending on what kind of an
attraction it is. So shall we call it we have a problem with our soulmate attraction. And even though we treat others, who
are neither of the first two things – ourselves or our soulmate – badly, we believe that a relationship with God is possible,
while we treat other people badly. And a relationship with God is not ever going to be possible while we treat other
people badly, ever.
So of course there’s degrees of how we treat people. So if we treat other people badly half the time, then half the time we
might be able to have a relationship with God because the other half the time we’re treating other people well and so
therefore in that interaction we can actually have some kind of relationship with God. If we want to become at-one with
God, which is being connected with God all of the time, then we must have love for every single one of those people;
ourselves, the other half of ourselves, and any other person. But if we really want to become at-one with God we’re not only going to have to have love for that we’re also going to
have to have love for all of God’s Living Creations, and also love and respect for all of the inanimate creations and how
we deal with all of them.

So in other words at some point in time we’re going to have to love our physical body. So if we’re there still drinking
alcohol, which is killing brain cells in our physical body, you can’t really say in that place that you love yourself. If you’re
still getting angry with your partner all the time you can’t really say you love your partner. If you’re still projecting at
other people that they’re not as good as you or they’re worse than you are or you’re condescending towards them, even just
slightly feeling frustrated with them, then you’re not loving them. They’re allowed to exercise their own will – so this is a
part of not loving people.
If we’re using animals and other creatures for our own benefit and we’re willing to destroy their life in order to have that
occur, then we’re not even loving them; and if we’re willing to manipulate animals in order to get things from them, we’re
not loving them either.
So there are a lot of areas where we’re not loving under those circumstances. And we can’t expect to have a relationship
with God while we’re doing all those things, because God created all those things. You, your soulmate, others, their
soulmates, all other living creatures – everything was created by God. You can’t expect to have a loving relationship with
God while we’re being unloving with all those things. And we’re never going to be loving with all those things while our
fear is the most dominant thing in our life. Because whenever compromise is put in our face, where we have to
compromise what we’re doing or love, if we honour fear we will always do what fear dictates: we won’t love; we’ll always
do what the fear wants.

Truth exposes fear


Truth exposes fear
I don’t know but do you notice that fear is a bit like ice. Do you notice that? It’s like it feels so immovable and so
constraining that it feels like you can’t do anything else but act in harmony with the fear. That’s what it feels like. So let’s
draw it as a block of ice. Now I often liken truth to water, so let’s say that block of ice is floating in some water. Where
would the water level be on the ice under normal circumstances, if we’re talking from a scientific perspective? Is it 2/3’s?
1/8, 7/8’s? How much does H2O expand when it gets cold? Well let’s draw it at about one eighth. [01:02:38.04]
So if fear is a block of ice and the water is truth, can you see that truth has only exposed a certain amount of your fear at
this point in time only? You’ve only become conscious of this fear that is above the water line of the block of ice. Already
for many of you that’s too much. But it’s your fear that prevents most of the engagement of all of the principles of putting
it altogether with your relationship with God.

Using an analogy of fear being ice floating in water of truth, we are only aware of the fear in us that is above the water line and
has been exposed by truth
It’s mostly the refusal to do these things – love, truth, humility, faith and will, which is only dictated to you by your fear –
that causes you to stop doing these things, which means that you can no longer put it all together and it means that your
relationship with God is affected: and this part of the ice that is above the water line is the only part of your fear that
you’ve allowed yourself to expose. So above the water line is the fear that you could say you were aware of; that’s what
you’re aware of. Below the water line is all of the fear that’s inside of you that you’re completely unaware of. Now who is
frightened about that concept? So we’re frightened about a concept that explains where we are about fear: and often we
are afraid of what we’re actually seeing.
So for pretty much all of us this is how our life is until we engage more truth. When we engage more truth, it’s like
draining the cup of water. So imagine this ice and water is in a cup, so let’s put it inside of a cup. Now if you have more
truth, it’s like tipping out that water level so the water level reduces. So if the water level reduces what happens? The
more truth that happens, the more fear is exposed. Is that not true? Isn’t that what happens when we start processing
through issues of truth in our day-to-day life? We get more afraid, generally. That’s what happens. [01:05:07.15]

Tipping out the water, by receiving more truth, exposes more fear

Percentages of the audience who have progressed


Percentages of the audience who have progressed
So the reason why I asked this question about relationships is this. If I had to break up the whole audience in terms of
condition of what’s really going on inside, I’d need to break up the women from the men, because it’s different for the
women than the men generally in the audience. But if we look at the general condition of the majority of us, fifty percent
of us still have no idea what it means to practice Divine Truth, and I’m talking about fifty percent who have listened for
three to five years still really have no idea. Around forty percent have an idea and have made some progress, but their
progress has now either stagnated, or become very frustrating, or has been dictated to by their fear. In other words they’ve
only progressed on the issues that you’re not so afraid of. And for the issues that you’re terrified of, there’s been little or no
progress in those areas.
And then around ten percent – so there’d probably be close to one hundred and fifty people here today, so we’re talking
about fifteen of you – actually do understand what it means to connect emotionally to God and connect emotionally to
your emotions and so forth, and actually have made continual progress, and have also started to get beyond your fear. In
other words your fear no longer dictates your action, which is something that’s been a major change in your life. But there
are only around fifteen people in the audience who do that actually, where their fear no longer dictates their actions, or the
majority of their actions. There’s still fear for all of you that dictate your actions in some cases, but there’s around fifteen
of us in the audience that actually no longer let themselves be ruled by their fear. So that means in one hundred and fifty
people there are basically one hundred and thirty five people who still let their fear dictate everything. [00:59:09.28]
That’s why in 2009 and 2010 I gave a whole series of talks about fear. I even did a “Fear Revisited”. You remember that?
Going back to try and get people to deal with their fears. The reason why is because fear is a major limiting factor on your
life. As soon as the fear is triggered, what is happening for the majority of you is you throw away love, you throw away
truth, you throw away humility, you throw away faith and you use your will to look after your fear, which is your God.
Many of you have made some progress – I feel there are at least fifty percent of you that have made some progress that I
see. When I’m measuring progress I’m not measuring it from the point of view that you lived here and then you moved
there because that to me is a sideways shift – you’re still on the Earth, it’s a sideways shift; and I don’t mean that you now
have a different job, well that’s just a sideways shift. I mean that you’ve actually become more loving and it’s observable
to other people. Other people feel you are more loving than you were when you began. Now for many of you, other

people feel you are no different than you were five years ago. For some of you other people feel that you are actually
worse than you were five years ago, in terms of love; and that can happen because when all of our fears get triggered,
what do we have a tendency to do if fear is our god? We start acting in all of our fears and we become more unloving
automatically as soon as we act upon our fears.
So what I’m going to do now is break it up into men and women, and what’s going on in terms of what’s going on for the
genders generally in the audience currently. So this doesn’t always apply to everybody who’s listening to this talk, but
rather just the audience currently. Before I do that, what I’d like to do is just talk to you a little about fear and truth.

Placing fear as our god


Placing fear as our god
See this is what happens when fear rules. You’re saying, “I’m choosing to let my fear rule”, but that’s just an excuse
because the reality is if your desire, your will was being exercised in harmony with love, you would ignore your fear,
even if you had it. You would ignore it, you wouldn’t listen to it. You wouldn’t do what it dictates. You would choose
instead to do something that you know to be right.

So for example, if you know that when you control, or if you want to control a potential partner, you’re not going to get
very many potential applicants. If you know that for certain, then surely the most logical thing to do would be to use your
will in a different direction. In other words, stop controlling, stop wanting to control. And then of course all your fears
would come up and if you were truly humble, you would feel them. You wouldn’t hold on to them and you wouldn’t say,
“I’m using my fear to determine my course of action.” Because why would anybody want to use their fear to determine
their course of action? It makes no logical sense to use your fear when you know your fear is not actually God’s Truth, it’s
just what you believe to be true.
And so what I’m suggesting is that a lot of times we use these excuses like, “I’m terrified”. That’s an excuse to not have a
relationship. It’s not a valid excuse. It’s an excuse we want to use and the reason why we want to use it is because we don’t
want to love, and we don’t have a strong enough will and we don’t have a strong enough faith that things are going to be
different. We believe that every time we engage a new relationship that eventually they’re going to either want to control
us or I want to control them because they’ll do things that might stress me out, may make me feel certain things that I RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD – PUTTING IT ALL TOGETHER JESUS (AJ MILLER) 
don’t want to feel. Well that’s a lack of humility because if you just let yourself feel everything, then you wouldn’t be
worried about that. [00:54:50.08]
So we start seeing these problems that we face are surrounding fear, which many times they are, but what happens is we
do this with our fear, and I’ve told many of you this many times – we make our fear God and everything else comes
behind our fear.
So we like the idea of love and we like the idea of truth and we like the idea of becoming humble and we like the idea of
having a strong faith in God and in the positive parts of the universe, and we like the idea of using our will with desire
and passion and having an expressive life. We like all of those ideas and concepts. But what we have done is we’ve placed
our fear as our God and as soon as we place our fear as our God, all those ideas go out the window the moment our fear is
triggered.
The moment our fear starts to come up all we do from that point on is try to suppress it. We’re not interested in using our
will in harmony with love anymore, we’re not interested in the truth anymore, we’re not interested in being loving with
our brothers and sisters, our friends, the world, animals – all these other things. We’re not interested in loving all of those
things; we’re not interested in trying to maintain a concept that actually God is good. We’re not interested in any of those
things anymore because our fear is God, and fear is not a good God, we know that. But we feel that we must conform to it
every single time. And in making fear our God we are ignoring all of these things in that momen

single women in the audience


An example of single women in the audience
So if I can give some examples. Many of you ladies are single, are you not? Can I just have a show of hands of all the
people who are single in the audience? So okay, in fact, the majority. Now how many of you are ladies? So okay, the
majority of the single people in our audience are in fact women. And yet there is a fairly even mix of men and women in
the audience today. But the majority of single people are women. Now do you know why the majority of you believe you
are single? Because I can tell you why and if you are honest with yourself you’ll be able to feel why.
Participant: I like to be in control and I like to believe my mythology and I am terrified.
So you want a partner who you can control.
Participant: I would prefer probably someone who’d just do everything I said and fall into line.
Well good luck with that. I don’t think that’s going to happen.
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Yeah. But see this is where we have got to be honest with ourselves that that is what we want you see. It is important to
be honest, so please don’t think I’m making fun about the honesty, because the honesty is very important. It’s very
important for us to see the real reason of what’s going on. So you go, okay, I want control. So is control love? No, so
basically what we’re saying is we don’t want to love, we want control. And what’s the internal justification that you can
feel for that? What’s the feeling inside of you that causes you to feel that control is good?
Participant: Well I feel it is fear driven.
Okay so there’s fears inside of you that makes you feel that control is good and because you want control you can’t love.
And honestly it’s highly unlikely as well that you will attract the other half of yourself because they’re going to go, “Do I
want to be controlled? Probably not.” And so they’re not going to be attracted basically just from that feeling that’s
coming from you as an individual. So we know that’s a problem. How long have you known that’s a problem? [00:52:07.26]
Participant: I haven’t been with anyone for twenty years and I think I’m terrified.
Okay, so you’ve known it’s a problem way before you even met me. You’ve known this is a problem and nothing’s
changed on that front. So what would that tell you?
Participant: That I’m in error and I need to shift.
But isn’t it really telling you that you don’t want to shift?
Participant: Yes.
Because if you wanted to shift, of course the shift would occur. So this is telling us where we – let’s call it stubborn, shall
we?
Participant: Yes. I’m choosing to let my fear rule this.
No see that’s the excuse, you see – that’s the excuse and this is where we go.

Soul progression


Soul progression by audience members
What I would like to discuss with you is the areas that are very obvious for this group of people, not the newer persons as
I said, but the persons who have been listening for a fair portion of time. I want to discuss with you what’s really going on
for many of you in terms of your own progression. [00:45:04.10]
Now can I ask you a direct question? How many of you feel that in the time you’ve listened to the Divine Truth, you’ve
actually progressed? Can you put up your hand, where you’ve actually progressed in love? Okay. So would that be the
majority? I think so. Maybe I need to ask the opposite. How many of you feel you haven’t progressed at all? Just a few of
you, okay. So the majority feel you have progressed at least in some way. Okay. How many of you feel that progression is RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD – PUTTING IT ALL TOGETHER JESUS (AJ MILLER)
relatively easy? No one feels that. Okay. And how many of you feel, that you are sort of what you would classify, as
struggling with it still? How many of you feel you are sort of struggling with it all still. Okay, so the majority again. How
many of you feel like it is a breeze, everything is going smoothly, you don’t have to worry. No? No one is in that
category, okay. How many of you believe that things are going well but sometimes there is a suspicion that they are not
going as well as what you would hope. How many of you feel that way? Just a few, okay. No worries.
Well let’s look at what is really going on for the group of people who are here. Can I do that? Because I know a lot of you
now. How many of you come along to sessions now for five years? There’s quite a few of you who are five years. Four
years? So now we’re talking more than half. Three years? If you keep your hands up, now we’re almost talking the
majority who are here. Two years? So pretty much aside from a few, there are a lot of you two years at least.
Okay so do you feel that the progression you’ve made in the time that you’ve listened to the Divine Truth matches what
you believed you would be able to achieve at the beginning of the time you heard about it? (Laughter) How many of you
feel that? How many feel that the progression that you have achieved has matched what you believed you would achieve?
Okay, just a few.
And to be honest with you, there’s good reasons for that because a lot of times at the beginning we have all these concepts
that our lives are a certain way, that we have certain influences around us and then through the process of emotional
discovery we realise that a lot of things are not what we thought. We realise we’re under a lot more spirit influence than
we actually thought we were. We realise that we have a lot more addictions than we believed we had in the beginning.
We thought that we were a lot more loving, but really when you put us under pressure we’re not that loving at all and you
find out a lot of things about yourself in the process and so of course what you believed about yourself at the beginning is
often very different to what you currently believe about yourself.
So how many of you now believe very different things about yourself than you believed when you first started? Okay, so
everyone. And that’s what you would expect, isn’t it? If God were bringing you towards some truth, there’d be some
progress there. [
But the big problems that we have are not related to what we know, are they? The big problems we have are what we
don’t know; that’s the big problems we have. And there are many issues that we face, personally, that we would like to
ignore. And for many of us we do want to ignore them.
Mary: I just wanted to ask if you could explain why the big problem is the things that we don’t know as opposed
to the things that we do.
Well with the things that we do know, there is at least a consciousness, even from an intellectual perspective, at some
level of consciousness that there is a problem in that particular area. But the things we don’t know at all, there is neither
an intellectual consciousness nor an emotional awareness that it is a problem

Using will in harmony with God’s Laws


Using will in harmony with God’s Laws
And then lastly, one of the biggest problems we have is that we might believe all of these things are true intellectually, we
might accept them all intellectually, but when it comes to exercising our will in harmony with these things, that’s where
we fall down. In other words we don’t have a strong desire to truly be loving. We only have a desire to be loving as long
as good things happen as a result. But something bad might happen as a result of us being loving, and by the way it is
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space sometimes they view what you do in a loving space as unloving. And so they have a response to that. So often times
what we’re trying to do is we’re trying to exercise our will in harmony with self-protection. We’re not exercising our will
in harmony with love or truth or humility or faith. Instead we’re exercising our will in a way that we try to protect
ourselves from what is going on, what is happening in our lives: protect ourselves from any – what we see as future harm.
We often are exercising our will in that direction only and we will under those circumstances compromise: compromise
truth, compromise humility, compromise love; and many of us on a day-to-day basis still compromise love; we still do
that. 
So if we were truly wanting to put it all together, what we would do is we would exercise our will in harmony with God’s
Laws. That’s what we would do. That’s how we would exercise our will. We would not exercise our will out of harmony
with God’s Laws, whether we know intellectually they’re God’s Laws or emotionally. As soon as we know intellectually
even, without us being aware emotionally, we would want to exercise our will in harmony with what we’ve learnt. We
would not keep giving ourselves excuses.
For instance, one excuse that I hear from many of you is, “I’m not there yet.” How many times have you used that one in
your personal life? You go, “I know that I should do this but I’m not there yet. I’m not capable of doing that yet.” And in
particular we see that happening when it comes to telling the truth with other people. “I know I should tell my husband
that I cheated on him ten years ago, but I’m not there yet.” In other words I’m not in the state yet where I feel like I can be
motivated to do that and take the consequences. That’s really what we’re saying. We’re saying I’m not there yet because
we’re saying we know that God’s Laws will all happen a certain way to correct our attitude and we don’t really want to
engage those laws in the direct manner, and so we try to make excuses for ourselves. That’s what we do.

Now they’re the primary parts of putting our relationship with God together: they’re the primary parts. Now it’s a very
brief summary, of course we could discuss, and I have done for hours and hours on end, love and what love is and what
love isn’t and all of those different things. We’ve got whole seminars where we did whole days of what it means to love
another person; whole days of what it means to receive Love from God; whole days of what God’s Truth is. And in fact
Mary and I will be presenting more information about God’s Truth over the coming months. About what is God’s Truth,
what are the qualities of God’s Truth, what are the attributes of God’s Truth.
Mary and I have already done humility. Like I’ve said, we’ve done five sessions on humility, called “Interview with Jesus
– Humility” and talked a lot about what that is, what it looks like, what it feels like, how it is. Remember we’ve just done a
series of talks about faith and prayer called “Relationship with God – Faith & Prayer”. And in those we defined faith and
what it is and how we can integrate that into our relationship with God and so forth. We’ve also had many discussions
with you about will, the exercise of your will in harmony with love, such as “The Human Soul – The Gift of Free Will”.
We’ve had many discussions about that. So my suggestion is if you want to know more about those particular things is to
go to those discussions and listen to them again or watch them again because I don’t want to so much discuss with you the
intricacies of each thing today.

Why things come at you and you don’t know


 Faith that God is good and loves
Next we want to talk about faith. You remember in our previous presentations, such as “Relationship with God – Faith &
Prayer”, I’ve talked a little about faith and I’ve said that we need to have the kind of faith where we actually allow
ourselves to believe that God is good. Many of us don’t believe God is good.
For instance, many of you have learnt about the Law of Attraction. How do you feel about the Law of Attraction? When I
have discussions with many of you about the Law of Attraction, I can feel from you that you actually hate the Law of
Attraction. You think the Law of Attraction is a damn mess, particularly when it’s imposed in your own life. And when
the Law of Attraction happens, and different events get triggered, many of you still believe, that you want to try to get
away from those events somehow, try to manoeuvre around these events.
For example, you see the number of somebody that you don’t like very much ringing you on the phone, so what do you
do? You decide to answer, or not answer and go to message bank – which one is it most of the time when it’s somebody
you don’t want to talk to? Isn’t it message bank most of the time? And why is that? Why does that happen? Because we
don’t engage that as a Law of God – that we have attracted this conversation, to learn something and there’s a law
involved. And we don’t have any faith in that. So what we do is we turn off, if you like, all of the chances God’s giving us
to grow. We turn them all off, we shut them all down, and this is what we do because we don’t have faith that God is good
and that God loves us and God wants to have a relationship. We don’t have faith in those things.

Desiring to feel every emotion


Desiring to feel every emotion
Let’s look at the next thing – humility – the desire to feel everything, rather than blaming other people for your feelings, or
God. And that’s only just a part of humility. Like I said we can discuss humility, and we have done for I think about 12 or
15 hours. So there are a lot of parts involved in humility but that is one of the things that is very important to understand.
Now for the majority of us, we don’t have that desire, we only have that desire when the feelings are what we believe are
going to able to be coped with.
So in other words our fear determines how humble we are. Most of us are afraid to go too far in any direction, in terms of
how we feel, so what we do is we create constraints in our feelings and emotions that prevent us from feeling the way we
truly feel on so many different subjects. And as a result we’re not humble; we are governed by our fear. And our fear
determines how much we’re willing to accept. And because our fear determines how much we’re willing to feel, our fear
then determines how much we’re willing to hear as truth. And our fear determines how loving we’re going to become.
And if our fear is high, then the amount of love that we’re going to finish up having is going to be very low; because our
fear will dictate how much love we can express.
Our fear will also dictate how much love we can receive. Many of us are not receiving love at all because we’re so afraid
of somebody loving us for lots of different emotional reasons, most of which involve the feelings that if somebody loves
us they’re trying to control us or they’re trying to manipulate us and so forth.]
So this is a big problem for many, this problem of humility

Good


How are you today? Good? I’m not very good, not many people want to hear the truth. Welcome today. How many of
you is this your first time? Just a few of you. And how many of you have only listened for the last six months or so on
YouTube? Most of what I say today will not apply to you, so you’re off the hook!

When I say it won’t apply to
you, when I’m talking about the people in the audience, or the percentages of people who are doing this or that you’re not
included in that because obviously you’ve just heard the Divine Truth. We would like to welcome you along.
So what I would like to discuss with you today is this subject that is part of the Relationship with God series of talks, and
I want to call it “Putting It All Together” and this will be session 1.
Now I want to say at the start of this discussion that many of you are going to walk away today and feel really upset.
Some of you will want to be angry with me as a result of today’s discussion. The reason why is I’m going to be very blunt
with you as a group, particularly the group of people who have been listening for years now. I particularly want to be
blunt with you because I feel that many of you are avoiding deep issues of truth in your personal life. And this is what is
causing many of your current problems. So I want to discuss with you the reasons why these things are happening and
what is really going on.
To do that we want to look at how to put your relationship with God all together and then actually dissect where we are
not doing it, to be honest about where we are not doing that, because if we are not honest about that, then of course you’ll
spend another five years listening without really making any changes. And during that period of time you’ll have a lot
more spirit influence on you to conform to their way of life and their way of thinking and so forth, you’ll have a lot of
pressure from Earth and you’ll feel very unhappy. And the reason why many of you actually have felt quite unhappy is
because of this already. And the more you delay your own progression, the more unhappy you become in fact. And so
what I want to do is frankly discuss with you what’s going on.
2. The five basics required for progression towards God
To do that I want to remind you of the five basic things you need for progression towards God. What are they? Let’s start
with the most important one – what’s that? A desire to love isn’t it, really? Love. Would you put truth or humility as the
next more important thing? I think I’d put truth myself – and here we’re talking about God’s Truth, not your own – because
to me, it’s only God’s Truth that will set you free. It’s impossible to be set free by your own truth. You can only be set free
through actually coming to experience and feel God’s Truth. So that’s the next important thing.
Obviously as many of you have pointed out, humility is so important in that process, and remember what the definition of
humility is? In particular can you remember that it was the definition regarding emotion that we need to focus on? The
willingness to feel every single thing you feel as it really is whether it feels good or bad. That is a part of humility but not
the only parts of humility. Mary and I have done a five series interview called “Interview with Jesus – Humility”, which is
available on the Internet, about all of the different parts of humility. I would advise many of you to have a look at that
again, if you haven’t had a look at it already. What would you say are the next two most important things that you need
for your relationship with God? Faith and will. So these are the things we discussed with you last time, in “Relationship
with God – Faith & Prayer Session 4”.
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Now many of you have a false concept of your own condition. For a few of you the false concept is that you think your
condition is worse than it actually is. But for the majority of us we actually think our condition is better than it actually is.
Now what I would like to do is be honest about your condition because if you are not honest about your own condition of
love, how is it that you’ll ever develop a true desire to change? You need to know where you are before you can know
where you’re aiming. But also you need to know where you’re aiming before you’ll take any action.
So if we look at this issue of love, what are we aiming for? If we’re on the Divine Love Path, if we’re following this
pathway that God has made to become at-one with God, what are we aiming for? It’s quite obvious, isn’t it? We’re aiming
for becoming at-one with God in love. What we’re aiming for is becoming at-one with the way God loves

What is our “Will”


What is our “Will”
It is our ability to develop, experience and satisfy the following without restraint;
Emotions, desires & passions
Intentions
Beliefs
Thoughts
And to make;
Choices and decisions
That result in actions that not only affect our own lives, but also the lives of others and our
environment
Why Was The Gift Of “Free Will” Given?
So that we can be free-thinking, feeling, sentient, self and environmentally aware beings
So that we must take full personal responsibility for our own lives and our own creations
So that we can experience love of all types, including God’s Love
Without free will, love would not be a feeling we could feel and express, since Love is a gift
given to others, and cannot be forced upon others
So that we can discover Truth
Without free will, truth would be forced upon us, without it being something that we could
experience the joy of discovering
So that we can experience ourselves
Without free will, we cannot be completely self-aware, and be completely self-responsible
So that we can choose our future
Without free will, our future would already be pre-determined, or fated by a higher power, or
by the universe itself
How & When Is It “Free”?
Will is completely “Free” on earth in that;
God does not:
Limit or restrain, or restrict our use of our Will while on earth
Place immediate restrictions that we notice while on earth
Move us to locations on earth that match the desires we have
Force us to be loving before we can enjoy better surroundings
God has:
Created Laws that cannot be broken without penalty or consequence
The consequence is imposed upon the soul as soon as the Law is broken
These consequences accumulate upon the soul, until we begin noticing them
Important Note:
All pain and suffering on earth, such as sickness, disease, accidents, and death are all results
of our own use of will, or someone else’s use of will, out of harmony with God’s Love
Will is relatively “Free” in the spirit world after you die in that;
God now:
Limits or restrains, or restricts our use of our Will (what you sow, you will reap)
Places immediate restrictions that we can see (so others in spirit cannot be damaged)
Moves us to locations in the spirit world that match the desires we have
Ensures that we must be loving before we can enjoy better surroundings
Ensures that the pain of unloving use of Will is more extreme
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God has still:
Laws in operation that cannot be broken without penalty or consequence
Consequence is imposed upon the soul as soon as the Law is broken
Consequences accumulate upon the soul, until we begin noticing them
Will is completely “Free” at all times and in all locations when;
We use our will in complete harmony with God’s Love and Laws
We make all choices and decisions in harmony with God’s Love and Laws
We have all emotions, feelings, intentions, thoughts, and desires in harmony with God’s Love
The Link Between Free Will and Personal Responsibility
The Ways We Give Away Our Will
Giving our “Will” to God, doing “God’s Will”
Giving our “Will” to others, doing the Will of others
Denying our own “Will” and assuming a state of “ignorance”
The Effects Of Giving Away Our Will
Doing “God’s Will” results in;
God does not accept a person’s assumption they are doing God’s Will
God does not take responsibility for our exercise of will out of harmony with God’s Love
God will not accept our desire to avoid our fear of taking complete personal responsibility
We are not honouring the gift when we attempt to give it straight back to God
Actually God’s Will is that we discover and use our will in harmony with His Love & Laws

Giving our “Will” to others, doing the Will of others results in;
All of the effects listed under doing “God’s Will” plus;
We are avoiding fears, and this brings with it pain in our life and the lives of others
We support others addictions, and so bear partial responsibility of what this creates
Outcomes for ourselves and others will be painful

Denying our own “Will” and assuming a state of “ignorance” results in;
All of the effects listed under both doing “God’s Will” and giving our will to others, plus;
Stagnation of our own development
Lack of knowledge and awareness of our own environment
Responsibility for everything we create by inaction that is out of harmony with Love
The Pain/Pleasure Relationship To The Exercise Of Will
Unloving Choices
Always results in pain and suffering in the short and long term
If we are insensitive emotionally, we will not feel the short term pain within our soul
When engaged in the longer term, will always result in suffering
When we arrive in the spirit world, there will be compensation needed to pay for the choices
When we arrive in the spirit world, our pain and suffering for unloving choices will increase
This can only be removed by compensation or repentance
Please note: This applies whether we were aware of the unloving choice or not. The pain
(immediate) and suffering (long term) gives us the feedback needed to see that we have made
unloving choices either individually or collectively
Loving Choices
Always result in pleasure and joy in the short and long term
If we are insensitive emotionally, we may not feel the short term pleasure
When engaged in the longer term, will always result in pleasure and joy
When we arrive in the spirit world, there will be rewards for the choices we made
When we arrive in the spirit world, our pleasure and joy will increase
There is no need for compensation or repentance
Please note: This applies whether we were aware of the loving choice or not. The pleasure
(immediate) and joy (long term) gives us the feedback needed to see that we have made
loving choices either individually or collectively

The way we currently live is severely out of harmony with “The Way


The way we currently live is severely out of harmony with “The Way”
Emotions are not a ‘means to an end’ but rather are the “Way” we end up living
Emotions are not a ‘process’ but rather a “Way” of life
Emotions & The Way
With respect to the Way, there are two parts to emotions;

 Living being connected to God emotionally
Impossible to be at-one with God from an intellectual standpoint
It is impossible to connect to God intellectually
The intellect is only the brain of the spirit body
The ‘soul’s mind’ is its emotional core, the intellect is a tool of the soul’s mind
God is the Constant Emotional Being
Connection to God is only possible by becoming a constant emotional being

Part 2 – Living as an emotional being in harmony with God’s Love
Impossible to be connected to one-self from an intellectual standpoint
It is impossible to connect to other souls intellectually
Living in harmony with God’s Love is impossible intellectually
You can only exchange information intellectually
Thinking ‘thoughts of love’ only benefits when those thoughts translate into emotions
Emotions allow you to exchange feelings, love, truth
Emotions allow you to truly live and experience life
Emotions allow you to become the person God created you to be
For emotions to benefit you and others, they must in harmony with God’s Love

Proper Understanding Of Emotions
Living emotionally
Emotions are not the means to the end
Emotions are a major part of the “Way” you will eventually live
Without them, you will

Without emotions, it is impossible to;
know God
become at-one with God
know or understand yourself
know or understand someone else
have a real experience of anything
‘understand’ anything about the soul
truly live and experience life
truly understand the universe in which you live
exchange feelings
progress beyond the 6th sphere or dimension
to sincerely grow and change
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Your Attitude To Emotions
You will not:
invest in your emotions
identify with emotions
involve others in feeling your emotions with you
be afraid of your emotions
be afraid of others emotions

You will:
feel that emotions pass through you and do not stay with you
feel that you are what you feel while you feel it
feel that you are not permanently what you feel
feel that having others ‘share’ your experience cheapens your experience
feel that emotions are openheartedly welcomed
feel that when others are emotional they are being real
feel that emotions need to be in harmony with Love in order for a connection with God
to be maintained
feel that emotions our of harmony with love must be experienced to be released
feel that growth is impossible without the experience of emotions
feel that a loving condition is impossible without emotions in harmony with Love
feel that nothing can change while unloving emotions are maintained within
feel and honour your own emotional experience

Your attitude


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Introduction
Subjects from previous sessions:
The way we currently live is severely out of harmony with “The Way”
Emotions are not a ‘means to an end’ but rather are the “Way” we end up living
Emotions are not a ‘process’ but rather a “Way” of life
Emotions and the “Way”
We must live being connected to God emotionally
We must live as an emotional being in harmony with God’s Love
Your attitude to emotions
We must see emotions as a “way” of life, rather than a goal
We must remove impediments to feeling 100% of the time

Your Attitude To Progression
Thinking Growth involves;
thinking you have dealt with something when you have not
thinking you have changed when from God’s viewpoint you have not
having intellectual realizations without accompanying emotional experiences
thinking you know things you do not feel
thinking you know things you have not experienced
thinking you are more loving without having an emotional release of unloving feelings
analysing law of attraction events with the mind without emotional understanding or
connection
incorrectly identifying ‘injuries’, love, or truth, and not understanding the truth of
events or your own condition

If you are thinking growth, when you are placed in a difficult situation, you
will revert to your own historical unloving behaviour and feelings unless you
exert an extreme force of your own will

Truly Growing involves;
becoming a complete 100% emotional being (like God)
receiving God’s Love (an emotion of God) allows transformation of your own emotion
becoming a being with emotions that are only loving
feeling and expressing feelings and emotions 100% of the time
responding to events, people and truth in an emotional way
discovering the truth of your childhood and current life through feeling emotions
understanding the world, yourself and God emotionally
allowing the release of unloving emotions without acting upon them

If you are truly growing emotionally, when you are placed in a difficult
situation, you will always act in a loving manner automatically

Reminder: Being Humble Is An Emotional Process
Being Humble involves;
Desiring to face and feel the façade
Desiring to face and feel the addictions
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Desiring to face and feel the grief
Desiring to connect to the inner hurt (inner child’s pain)
Releasing desires for glory, attention, approval, acceptance, commiseration etc
Reminder: Truth Enters You Emotionally
Experiencing Truth involves;
Emotionally releasing FEAR (False Expectations Appearing Real)
Allowing Truth to enter your soul emotionally
Desiring Truth
Being Truthful in all of your thoughts, words and actions
Reminder: Love is an emotion
Experiencing the emotion of love;
Generates all desires
Generates all thoughts and words
Moves us to consistent action
Understanding Trapped Emotions
All trapped emotions have an age
Each time you were treated unlovingly, and then suppressed from feeling, the
emotion was trapped at the age that the suppression occurred
Each time you undertook an action out of harmony with God’s Love, the compensation
emotions entered you at the age the action was undertaken

Healing can only occur by feeling & experiencing these trapped emotions
Most healing emotions will feel child-like in their expression, unless they are emotions
relating to using your own will unlovingly, and in those circumstances, healing
emotions will only be repenting emotions.

Feeling ‘Adult’ emotions cannot heal you unless they are repenting emotions
‘Adult’ emotions are usually not healing emotions unless they involve your repentance
Unless they are repenting emotions, ‘Adult’ emotions of grief, shame, hurt, anger etc,
are all created by using your will to have your addictions met, in other words they are
self-deception created to avoid the child hood suppressed emotional pain.

Engaging Your Will Positively
Do I honestly from an emotional perspective wish to;
Engaging my will to be humble?
Engaging my will to receive truth
Engaging my will to receive love from god
Engaging my will to love God
Engaging my will to receive love from others
Engaging my will to love others

How would my life look if I engaged my will positively in the above areas?

Understanding Your Emotional Self (Session 4 Q&A)
Opportunity to engage questions about Understanding Your Emotional Self

Everyday we break God’s law of love


God’s Laws – An Introduction: Introduction
Today I’m going to give an introduction to God’s Laws. The reason why I decided to do this talk today is that most of
us have a lot of trouble with law. We have a lot trouble with this whole concept that we’re governed by something.
Now some of us are quite happy to be governed by things because it makes our life much simpler. If you can go to
somebody and get a law from them to tell you what to do, then it makes your life more simple, you don’t have to think
or feel much about it at all; you just do what they say. Now the problem with that of course is that we are now trying to
open up our souls and our hearts, and we are trying to get to the stage where we are going to be running everything
from our emotions. Now if we are governed by laws and we are trying to run these laws through our mind
intellectually, what’s happening most of the time is that we are trying to check every one of our actions with what we
know to be the law of the time.
So for example, before we started our discussions a year and a half ago, many of you didn’t know the full extent of the
Law of Attraction. You didn’t realise how it all worked. There’s a lot of information out there about it but all of it
seems to be fairly conflicting and it’s not always very clear, and what we have a tendency to do then is we go down the
track of, “I don’t really know the law so I’m just going to live my life how I see fit.” Now of course in time when your
soul is harmonious with God completely, living your life how you see fit is quite easy and you will never break a law
doing it that way. But up until that time, if you live your life how you see fit right now and you’ve got emotions in you
that are sad or angry, or other kinds of those emotions inside of you, what’s going to happen? Well quite a few people
are going to receive some of your anger and quite a few people are going to receive the results of some of the other
emotions that you have within you, which will actually be breaking some laws.
So we have to get this balance somehow of how do we progress without actually creating more damage to ourselves in
the process? If we continue to allow ourselves to continue to progress, at some point we are going to come up with this
problem that we have within ourselves and that is this issue of how much do we follow the law intellectually or how
much do we learn about this law from an emotional perspective? And what are the laws anyway and do I need to learn
every law? So these are some of the issues we want to discuss today. Most of us are not aware that there is a whole
hierarchy of laws, how some laws overcome some other laws and we will go through that today, as well as how
different laws affect our soul and even our physical form

Tell me I’m wrong


Moral laws are the Laws of Natural Love
This group of laws is the group of laws that the majority of us don’t want to hear about because we don’t like the whole
concept of our lives being governed by morality most of the time. Now if we allow ourselves to feel our emotions we
often do like the concept of morality but intellectually; and often with our emotional damage we don’t like the concept
of morality. But there’s a whole group of laws called the Laws of Natural Love. They operate upon the soul; they
change the consistency of the soul. If you break those laws, the soul’s own energy degrades and you will feel it
emotionally. So it’s not just a metaphysical operation that occurs, it’s an emotional operation that occurs.
So if I break a physical law what happens? If I break the Law of Gravity and I jump off a building I get damage to my
physical body. But if I was pushed I may have a different group of emotions associated with it. If it was an accident, I
may have another group of emotions associated with it, but the actual operation of me just falling off a building and
going kaput and separating from my physical and spirit bodies, the actual operation of that, what does that do? Nothing
emotionally, unless I have some emotional experiences that are attached to it. With all of these moral laws, the Laws of
Natural Love, they operate upon the soul, they all have an effect on our passions, and desires, longings, emotions, and
they all have an emotional effect of some kind on us. Not just a physical effect; they have an emotional effect. They
affect what’s going on inside of you emotionally, inside of your soul, which is the real you.
The reason why they’re called moral laws is that oftentimes they are deeply affected by morality. But they do not just
include moral laws, there are laws about positive things about love as well that are all part of this group of laws. You
could call them the next highest group of laws. So once you understand that highest group of laws, you’ll automatically do all of the things that are underneath that. It doesn’t mean that you’ll know everything at this point but it does mean
that you’ll understand how God made the universe in terms of how it affects your soul.
3.3.2. Moral laws affect where people pass to in the spirit world
You see, most people when they pass over have no idea why they have passed into the first sphere or into one of the
hells of the spirit world. They have no idea. The reason why they have no idea is that they’ve only understood the
physical laws of God but they’ve never understood any of these moral laws. Or alternatively they’ve broken those laws
in some way, and many people who are religious have broken them.
So for example you’ve heard of a law, “You must not murder,” but you’ve also heard that if you feel like murdering
somebody, you’ve already done it. In other words just having the feeling like you’ve wanted to murder is a breaking of
the Moral Law. It’s a law of the soul that affects the soul and it will affect where you go when you pass. So let’s say
you had some damaging things happen when you were on earth by a certain person. Let’s say that person was your
father who sexually abused you. When your father passes, he will obviously have a lot of soul damage because he’s
broken a lot of Moral Laws. But when you pass, if you have held on to that anger about all of those events, there’s a
high likelihood you’ll have a lot of very dark emotions about the damage you would like to do to him in return. So you
might have emotions like vengeance for example, wanting to take revenge. Well that causes your own soul condition to
degrade, and while you may not pass into the same location that he passed, because he’s actually done more damage
than that, you may still pass into the first sphere holding on to that emotion, because holding on to the emotion you
actually break some of these laws yourself

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So you think what


Moral laws operate upon the soul
The next layer – and this is the layer that we have most trouble with – is the moral layer. Now the moral layer is a
completely new layer of laws that we need to discuss. These all operate upon the soul.
The physical laws all operate upon the physical operation of the universe, right down to atom particles. The Moral Law
works upon the structure of the soul, which is totally different, and in fact it governs where you arrive in the spirit
world. So this is where most people on earth have lots of trouble because we don’t like to hear about morals. Ironically
it’s also mostly where religions have gone. For instance, most of the religions on earth have moral tenets, or moral laws
if you like, that they tell their followers. So you’ve all heard of the law from the Bible “You must not murder”; that is a
moral law. If you murder there will be an effect upon your soul. There’s a moral law that you must love so if you don’t
love, there will actually be an effect on your soul. There are also lots of different moral laws governing sexuality and if
you engage in sex without love, there will be an effect upon your soul.

The Soul is Distinct from the Body


The soul is distinct from the spirit body
When I talk about the soul I am not talking about anything to do with the spirit body at all. The spirit body’s layers,
which you described, are all part of the metaphysics that define the spirit body but they have nothing to do with the
soul. The terminology “soul” comes from sixth sphere spirits thinking that the spirit form at a certain layer is the soul,
but in reality that is not true. We can talk about that and argue about that but all we would be doing is arguing about
Divine Love principles compared to Natural Love principles. You are right on the Natural Love principle side of things
and everything you are talking about is correct but there is this whole other set of things going on at the soul level,
which is a totally different creation to any of the things that has been discovered with regard to the body. Unfortunately
what happens today is that many people use the same terminology for different things.
So when we start talking about the soul, what starts happening is we start referring to many spirits in the spirit world up
to the sixth sphere, which by the way is where all this information is coming from. They are actually referring to things
in spirit body, thinking they are talking about the soul. There are so many sixth sphere spirits here today who are
thinking that when I talk about the soul, I am talking about what you are referring to but actually I’m not talking about
that. I’m talking about some other part of you, which has control of these things that you are referring to as the soul.
So it’s very important to actually maintain a separation between the concepts of what’s being discussed. When I’m
talking about the soul, and this is very important for everyone to understand, I’m not talking about what you’ve read
about in metaphysical literature about the multi-layered construction of the spirit body. I’m actually talking about
something completely different. In fact at some point in your future, you will actually connect to only that thing and
these other bodies will not even exist for you. Now there are currently no spirits in the sixth sphere state who are in that
state because you can’t actually get into that state in the sixth sphere.
So a lot of what you’ve heard terminology-wise is not the terminology I am using here. When I’m talking about the
soul, I’m not talking about any of the etheric layers, or any of the emotional body layers, or any other layer of the spirit
body, even right down to what is defined by metaphysicians as the actual soul level state of the spirit body. None of
those things am I referring to when I’m talking about the soul. The soul, which you truly are, is a completely different
creation of God, and your body is just a manifestation of that state. And that’s where I’m coming from here.
So when you see literature talk about the etheric layers of the bodies or the other layers of these bodies, they’re actually
referring to what’s going on at the spirit body state, they’re not referring to what’s going on at the soul state. And in
reality, and this is the beauty of what God has created, what’s going on at the soul state is much more simple and easy
to understand than what is actually happening in the spirit body and the physical body. So in other words, when you
understand the soul, you will actually go through this process of letting go of all these intellectual definitions of what’s
going on in these states. In fact when you fully connect with your own soul, you’ll find that the physical and spiritual
states almost become something you never consider again. Because you know that all of these different states that
occur happen at a different layer, which you were not previously aware of, but that you will become aware of.
So for any of you who are healers or any of you are doing spirit body work, understand that almost all the information
that you have received about it relates to the spirit body and its construction, which goes from organs right the way
through to different layers of energy and different layers of emotional experiences that are all part of its construction.
But they are not actually the soul because the soul is the controlling force. So when I talk about the soul, I’m not
talking about anything that you’ve read today in any metaphysical book.The truth is that there are a lot more chakras, but most people have heard of, and work with, the seven primary ones.
But in reality what happens also with the spirit body is that when the soul develops above the sixth sphere, all of these
energy points also start changing. And so spirits see them as different creatures. I’ve spoken to many spirits who
actually believe that a person from the Celestial spheres is actually a different type of soul from a person who’s in the
sixth sphere or under because they don’t understand how the people got to where they are. And by the way they are not
different parts of the soul; they are the same part of the soul experiencing a different process. This is the Divine Love
process which we have been talking about.
The physical is something we’ve already discovered. By physical I’m talking about all those things you’ve mentioned,
all of the metaphysical things as well; that’s all physical to me, that’s also physical to God in the sense that everything
that is going on in those bodies, everything that’s going on around you in the universe energetically is all part of the
physical universe. I don’t mean just the material that you can see and touch when I’m talking about the physical.

Spirit Body


Practices that focus on the spirit body
When you’re in your sleep state, and even right now sitting here, your spirit body reflects moment by moment what’s
going on inside of your soul. Now who’s been to do some spiritual healing where you lie on the table and someone
works on your chakras? So usually you lie on the table and somebody works on the different chakra energy points of
the seven chakras that are in your body. Now what they do is they work in a certain way and they open them all up and
maybe a bit of emotion dribbles out of you in the process. So they open it all up and they get them all working
properly. How many of you have had it shown to you with a pendulum? So you see this pendulum rotating in a
clockwise direction around that chakra when that chakra is open. Now you go back next week and that chakra is closed
again so the person does the same thing again, they do their work on the chakra again, opens up the chakra again, you
do a dribble of emotion sometimes and we go through the same process. What’s actually happening is there are laws
that govern all of that process but they are all to do with the soul. You see if there’s not a change in the soul, that
chakra is going to close again and this is why most spiritual healing forms as practised today, if they are not focusing
on soul emotions, they are not actually accomplishing much.
Participant: I’m just a little bit confused about the spirit body. Is it an orb of colour or is it an actual ghost? Is that
what a ghost is?
The spirit body and in fact all forms of energy give off colours, so the spirit body gives off what is called an aura or a
group of colours. Now if the spirit body is in a poor condition it will not give off a strong aura or its aura will be
damaged in some way, so there will be holes in it. A person who can see an aura will see the different shapes and
colours inside the spirit form, but that’s not the spirit body itself. The spirit body itself has organs just like your body,
but they are in a different dimensional space. Sometimes some of you will notice the organ operating. So the spirit
body has a heart for example and so sometimes if you’ve gone into a meditative state and felt the beating of your own
heart, and then you’ve gone into a deeper meditation state and what’s happened then? You start feeling a really high
velocity beating going on in the same location as your heart, which is actually your spirit body’s heart. It’s actually an
organ in your spirit body.
Participant: My name is Dr George and I’m a master pranic healer. I teach all over the world and some of the things
you’ve told me quite impress me but if I could correct you there are 360 chakras in the body.
There’s actually more than that.
Participant: No there’s 360.
No there’s more, I’m sorry to disagree with you but there is.
Participant: I must be wrong because I just talked to 4,000 people in Hamburg.

What do you know what’s true


The physical laws are the lowest laws of creation From God’s perspective the physical laws are the lowest laws of creation.
They are the laws from God’s perspective with least impact upon you. From our perspective we think they have the most impact upon us but from God’s perspective they actually have the least impact upon us.
Because there’s another set of laws. Laws that operate on the soul
The next set of laws operates upon the soul. Now remember the spirit body is really just a material body in the spirit
world, so this set of laws doesn’t operate on the spirit body. The next set of laws operate only upon the soul. And this is
where there is a lot of confusion in our spirit friends who are in the first sphere who have come today because they
thought that this whole new group of laws would actually operate upon the spirit body. But the reason why they
thought that was the case is that they can see the brightness of the spirit body and they then deduce from that, that obviously that person is in a different place. And so they start thinking that the soul is the spirit body. So many of you
have been doing things like New Age philosophy or other types of philosophy that has a fair bit of focus on the spirit
body, but the spirit body just reflects the condition of the soul.

Soul


Now, if the soul is the primary thing upon which all laws operate, then it is important for us firstly to understand the
soul, which we have dealt with in previous discussions. It’s also very important for us to get away from our minds,
which are in our spirit bodies, and our brains, which are in our material bodies.We are souls, and have a spirit body and a material body as appendages
We need to get away from analysing things intellectually and into this space of analysing things at the emotional level.
When we do that we’ll start understanding the purpose of every law.

Learning the true meanings of the word


Learning the true meanings of words Today I’m going to use words like “sin”, “judgement” and “penalty”, which are all part of this law system that God
made. But they don’t have the meanings that you think they have. They don’t have the emotional connotation that you
have placed upon them in most cases. So we will talk about the true connotation, the actual truth about those terms.
The other thing I wanted to do today is get you to focus on your feelings because what often happens when we hear a
talk about God’s Laws is that we go all intellectual on it; we start going down this process of trying to work it all out in
our minds. Now the problem with that is that you are going to avoid some pretty key emotions within you if you do
that today, and you will feel quite triggered in this talk because we’ll be talking about sin, judgement, penalty and those
kinds of terminologies, which most of us have associated with some kind of religious viewpoint. We are going to start
having those emotions within us triggered. So the key for you is to allow yourself to feel the emotion that you feel
about these things.
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Emotionally confronting terminology


Emotionally confronting terminology
One of the things I’d like to say is that I am going to use terminology that triggers you emotionally today. So I’m going
to talk about terms such as “sin” for example. How many of you, when you hear that word “sin”, just have this “Argh”
feeling, this religious, “Oh that doesn’t sound very good” feeling? What about the word “judgement”? How does that
one get you? Not too happy with that word. You see every single word that is used has an emotional impact upon us
because of an emotional injury inside of us. In itself the word “judgement” has a specific meaning but it becomes
emotional for us if there’s some unhealed feelings within us. Many of us feel some emotions about the word
“judgement”. Now you can understand why? It’s because in particular when we were young, we were judged all the
time and often condemned and punished in the process, and so that’s obviously very unpleasant. So what happens now
is that whenever we hear the word “judgement”, we just rebel.

Spirits around you


Many spirits do not understand God’s Laws
I’ve also invited a lot of spirits here today and one of the reasons why I’ve done that is that there are a lot of spirits in
the spirit world, particularly in the first sphere of the spirit world, who do not understand law. If you imagine for a
moment if you spent all of your life here on earth, you didn’t really understand much about God or perhaps you really
didn’t believe in God much. You found out different things about your life and you lived what you thought was a pretty
good life; you did good things for others but some things happened to you that were quite damaging to you emotionally
and physically, so you had some anger and different emotions build up in you. Then all of a sudden something occurs
in your life and you pass. You pass from an illness or you pass from an accident or from old age. When you pass in that
state you wouldn’t actually have very much knowledge where you are going to, would you

God’s Laws – An Introduction: Introduction


God’s Laws – An Introduction: Introduction
Today I’m going to give an introduction to God’s Laws. The reason why I decided to do this talk today is that most of
us have a lot of trouble with law. We have a lot trouble with this whole concept that we’re governed by something.
Now some of us are quite happy to be governed by things because it makes our life much simpler. If you can go to
somebody and get a law from them to tell you what to do, then it makes your life more simple, you don’t have to think
or feel much about it at all; you just do what they say. Now the problem with that of course is that we are now trying to
open up our souls and our hearts, and we are trying to get to the stage where we are going to be running everything
from our emotions. Now if we are governed by laws and we are trying to run these laws through our mind
intellectually, what’s happening most of the time is that we are trying to check every one of our actions with what we
know to be the law of the time.
So for example, before we started our discussions a year and a half ago, many of you didn’t know the full extent of the
Law of Attraction. You didn’t realise how it all worked. There’s a lot of information out there about it but all of it
seems to be fairly conflicting and it’s not always very clear, and what we have a tendency to do then is we go down the
track of, “I don’t really know the law so I’m just going to live my life how I see fit.” Now of course in time when your
soul is harmonious with God completely, living your life how you see fit is quite easy and you will never break a law
doing it that way. But up until that time, if you live your life how you see fit right now and you’ve got emotions in you
that are sad or angry, or other kinds of those emotions inside of you, what’s going to happen? Well quite a few people
are going to receive some of your anger and quite a few people are going to receive the results of some of the other
emotions that you have within you, which will actually be breaking some laws.
So we have to get this balance somehow of how do we progress without actually creating more damage to ourselves in
the process? If we continue to allow ourselves to continue to progress, at some point we are going to come up with this
problem that we have within ourselves and that is this issue of how much do we follow the law intellectually or how
much do we learn about this law from an emotional perspective? And what are the laws anyway and do I need to learn
every law? So these are some of the issues we want to discuss today. Most of us are not aware that there is a whole
hierarchy of laws, how some laws overcome some other laws and we will go through that today, as well as how
different laws affect our soul and even our physical form

How to build faith in God through our emotional injuries


How to build faith in God through our emotional injuries
Mary: In order to connect to God, I’m going to need to be brave enough to grieve these feelings inside of me.
And also remember that the whole of humanity has them, so you’re also going to have to brave enough to confront the whole of humanity in the process, and their opposition to you dealing with these feelings.
Mary: So where does faith fall into this equation? Where do I decide to trust a different truth? Because the emotional truth is that I believe these things about God to some degree, although maybe not everything on your list. So where does my faith enter, or my trust?
The big problem we have is if we have these emotional beliefs about God, then how are we ever going to have a relationship with God?

There’s a big problem and then secondly, well if these emotions are within me already, how do I ever have the faith that these are not true? Because the feeling that I have is all of these things are true. The feeling I have inside of myself is that, “It is true that God’s cruel, and it is true that God doesn’t care and it is true that God’s wrathful and punishing. And it is true the only person that I can rely on is myself and if it were true, why would I want to connect with a God who’s just a RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD – WHY WE RESIST GOD JESUS (AJ MILLER)

cruel, punishing, wrathful person? I’d rather just rebel against God and do my own thing. And it is true that while I have all these gender based emotional beliefs that are imposed on God, well God’s not doing anything about that either. God’s not correcting us; God’s not showing to the world that God is different to this.” These are all feelings generally that are present in most people.
So when all these feelings are present, what do we do with them? Like how do we have faith that God is different to that? That’s a pretty good question, isn’t it? Because you’re going to at least have to have some faith that God’s different than that before you try to address these emotions. Because if you look at these issues from purely pragmatic perspectives, in our day to day life, how many times have you been able to truly rely on another individual for your life? Truly! Now you ask the average person that, “In stressful situations with every single person who’s around you, how many people have you actually been able to rely on, other than yourself?”
Now for many people, they’d have to honestly say zero. And for most people who don’t say zero, it’s very rare that it’s any more than five in their entire life. Now that understandably, from a pragmatic point of view, tends to indicate that, “I should rely on myself, that’s the only person I can rely on to look out for me.” And from a pragmatic perspective, “How can I change my mind on that issue? I’ve got no proof I can rely on anybody else, my whole life seems to be proof in the opposite direction to that.”
Then we look at this issue of a God who doesn’t care or is punishing, and we ask ourselves questions about what’s happening in the world. How many times have you seen something in the course of one day that you believe was totally unfair? Now for most people they’d have to answer that yes, pretty much every day of their life they observe something that they believe is totally unfair. ]
Now if God created this system of things, that means God is okay with it being unfair. Does it not? So I’m getting a feeling that God’s unfair. So what’s my pragmatic feeling associated with that? It’s, “God is unfair. I don’t see any proof otherwise. So how can I have faith when I don’t see any proof otherwise?” It’s very hard. So this is why the average person gives up the whole emotional reflection upon all of these subjects because it becomes very, very difficult. Then they look at this whole thing of God meeting my addictions. How many times have you, in very, very difficult times of your life, prayed to God for something to occur in a positive direction and it never has? Have all of you experienced that at some point?
Mary: In the teenage romance we talked about yesterday – that he would come back and love me.
So oftentimes we have all of these so called prayers that we have towards God, where we’ll long and long and long for something to happen. But it doesn’t happen. You think of how many people who are religious who are involved in war that prays in that way. Or who have been involved in the results of war, for instance people coming through and raping and pillaging the countryside. They pray for God to keep them safe and it doesn’t appear like God keeps them safe and they die, or they get raped, or they get hurt in some way. So when we look at that from a pragmatic perspective, and we go, “Yeah, God’s not doing anything there either, so how can I have any faith that God’s anything different or even exists, if God doesn’t do all these things?” Like you exist and you want to do something about it, even if you don’t feel like you have the power to do it. And therefore if God really wanted to do something about it, you feel that God should, but it
appears like God either doesn’t want to, doesn’t care, or doesn’t exist, as a result of these thing occurring.
If we’re honest with ourselves, that’s usually where we go emotionally. What I’m saying is that, yes, all of those belief systems are all present within us, and they’re all present within us because of what has happened to us in our life because
of what we believe is the lack of response from God. As a result of that, it’s very, very difficult for us to engage a conversation about what God is really like, because we already have established through what we see happening in the world what God appears to be and so therefore we accept that. So does that sound pretty negative? Yep? That’s good.
So the question Mary asked is how can we have some faith that God is different to that? Now, the question then becomes, well how does faith get established? I have given a talk called “Relationship with God – Faith” some time ago and we talked about faith and how it gets established. It can only get established through some actual event occurring that gives you the faith. There has to be some proof before faith can develop, but you have to engage the possibility of proof. What I RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD – WHY WE RESIST GOD JESUS (AJ MILLER)
mean by that is we have to allow for the fact that we might be wrong and that all of these things that we think, and all of these things that have happened to us, might have an alternative reason.

Coming to terms…


Coming to terms with how we feel about God
If we really want to understand the universe and understand everything in it, and understand ourselves completely, we
need to be sincere about working through our issues with God and we need to be sincere about where we are, what we
really do feel about God. When you talk to people who are religious (and in my life I’ve spoken to millions of people who
are religious), many of them believe concepts about God that they never voice in their religion, but they actually feel them
quite strongly. My own mother is a member of a Christian religion, and I’ve had discussions with her about God, for
example, and what I’ve found in every discussion is that she actually believes that God is cruel and punishing. One of the
reasons why she “worships” God is because she has this feeling that she wants to connect to God, but on the other hand
she is not open hearted in her connection with God because she actually believes, from her perspective, she says, “There’s
fifty million children that die every year of starvation on this planet, and God’s not doing a thing about it.”
Now if you’re honest with yourself and other people that is an issue that most people have with God. Most people have
this feeling that, you know, “If it was me, if I was God, I’d be doing something about it. God’s not doing anything about it.
What’s wrong with God? God mustn’t be as loving as I am.” Is the automatic assumption after that. And so there are a lot
of what I would classify as misconceptions and misunderstandings that people have about God that they don’t even allow
themselves to voice in their day-to-day life. And if you don’t voice them, you’re never going to face them emotionally and
if you don’t face them emotionally you’re never going to be able to have a relationship with God because you’ll carry
them in the relationship.
It’s a bit like if I believe Mary’s going to cheat on me every single day of our life together, can I have an open and close
relationship with Mary, if that’s my belief? If I believe Mary’s going to be dishonest with me, or Mary’s going to be cruel
with me, I’ll be constantly looking every single day for times when Mary seems like she might be heading in that
direction.

Accidents often…


Accidents often occur out of self punishment or a desire for attention in children
Participant: And what about when something bad happens like an accident? The feeling I have is that I’m beingpunished by God, that it’s a reflection that I’ve done  something wrong and it’s a kind of punishment from God for not doing something. Most accidents occur out of self-punishment actually. It’s a soul thing that we attract when we desire to punish ourselves. And generally most accidents, even for children, are results of a desire to self punish, or in children they can also be a desire for attention. So, quite often children don’t get attention, a hug until something happens that is bad to them.

They fall over then they get a hug, but generally many children, particularly if you think of my age group, the 50 plus age group, many times you didn’t get a hug at all unless something bad happened. For example, most people would consider
my mother to be a loving person, but my mother never hugged me in my entire life.
So what do you do? You create accidents and then you get the hug. Then you get the attention that you feel you’re missing, and that is a very common action on the part of a child. However it’s also part of self punishment in the sense that when you feel guilty about something, or you feel angry with things, generally there is this attraction that occurs immediately that causes accidents to occur. Yep. There are a multitude of causes for accidents of course but that is a big underlying factor. And it’s interesting that we then go down the track of going, “God doesn’t like me. God is punishing me. I did that wrong and this is the result.” And it just reinforces these beliefs about a cruel God. This is a problem on the planet; we keep reinforcing these totally inaccurate beliefs about God. We reinforce them over and over again.
Participant: Accidents are a major part of my condition from when I was a small child but I haven’t thought of it as self punishment.
When you’re a small child, it begins with the feelings of your parents. So if your child starts having accidents, it’s becauseof different feelings that they are having from their parents that cause the child to have accidents. Normally a child, by the
age of 2 or 3 and even before then if the child has been brought up in a very safe and loving environment, the child is very spatially aware; generally by the age of 7 a child is perfectly spatially aware. In other words they know exactly what they
can do with their body and what they can get away with without hurting their body. For most children still having accidents after that time, it is an indication that there is no spatial awareness inside of them. And if there’s no spatial awareness it’s because of something that’s happened with regards to space, that their parents want to be involved in their

RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD – WHY WE RESIST GOD JESUS (AJ MILLER) life too much, or there’s something going on between their relationship with themselves and their parents that causes them to have a lack of spatial awareness.And that is also something we oppose upon God as well. Every time we have this feeling with our parents, we then start to believe God is like our parents. So this is one reason why people are addicted to rebellion with God, because they feel

God will get too involved in their life and cause too much change. So they’d prefer God only be a Sunday morning thing,if that. Or just an occasional thing, for example we stand on a mountain and look at the view and think, “You’re a lovely
God.” That’s the occasional worship or feelings that most people would prefer to have with God rather than having a day to day interaction that changes their entire life.
And so most of our parents have a deep resistance to having children daily interacting in their life and as a result of that, most parents feel quite overwhelmed when they have their children. I don’t know how many of you have had children, but
if you think back to the very first child you had, for most parents that was pretty scary, in particular the first child. And that’s why a lot of times the first child is very, very involved emotionally with their parents, trying to assuage the parents’
feelings that they don’t know what they’re doing with this first child. [00:40:17.05]
And as a result of that, when the parents have any different emotions towards the child, the child then will either go into a feeling of being rejected, which it then tries to avoid by being self punishing. And when it becomes self punishing, it then gets the reward of the cuddle or the reward of the re-establishment of the relationship. So accidents often occur frequently as a result in a person who hasn’t felt very loved in their childhood except when the accidents have actually occurred.
Participant: Just going back to the hugging of the children, so if you hug your children quite a lot, how do you know being in error, you are not doing it from a needy point of view and you‘re doing it from pure love? Well if you hug your children and the reason why you are hugging them is so that you can feel something yourself, then
that is an addiction. If the reason why you are hugging them is to help them feel your love, then that’s more of a pure desire. And this is a problem on the planet for many of us, and many women have children so that they will be looked
after at some point in the future or be loved.
There is this concept very similar to the animal concept that many people have when they have a pet and that is this ideathat the animal will love you unconditionally and there’s this idea that a child will love you unconditionally. They areaddictions. When we are in a true state of love with our children we can love them even if they totally have nothing to do with us, we can still love them and we can still feel those feelings of love for them rather than feeling resentful.
When the child is very small like yours we often have feelings of love for them in the sense that we want to care for them because they cannot care for themselves but at the same time we often also have feelings of his lovely feeling we have of being able to nurture the child and that’s what we’ve got to be careful of because it’s that emotion that finishes up developing into an addiction and we’ve got to be careful that we don’t have these addictions with our children because the children will then feel bound to us and we don’t want our children to feel bound to us. We are not actually their parent the true parent of your child is God and all you have done is create two bodies for this child of God. Through the process of intercourse you have created the spirit body and material body in conception and then this child of God has incarnated and connected to you.
If most parents had the attitude that, “This is a child of God that I am caring for, rather than my own child,” they would probably feel less bound to the child and would want the child to be less bound to them. They’d be more interested in
helping the child to connect to God instead. Now that doesn’t mean the parent wouldn’t love the child, because of course the parent would. The whole reason why you have a child is because you want to share your love with the child, and the
whole reason why God had Her children was that She wanted to share Her Love with Her children. It’s the same principle.But God didn’t want to get love from Her children. God doesn’t have an addiction for our love and whenever we impose
the same addiction on our child, we finish up damaging our child.
So these problems are all part of the gender based emotional injuries that we have generally. Unfortunately it gets carried down generation to generation to generation and before you know it, we have far more injuries with God than we have
with any other being. And as a result of that, when we start talking about God in a positive sense, it’s almost like our ears are turned off. It’s like (AJ sticks his fingers in his ears and starts singing to block out noise), “Na na na na na na na,” but
then we hear the word soulmate and we go, “Soulmate! Was that soulmate that I heard? I’ve got an ear open now.” Or, RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD – WHY WE RESIST GOD JESUS (AJ MILLER)

“Emotion! Emotion! Pleasure! Pleasure! Sex! Yes. I’ll talk about that one”. And we have this closed viewpoint when we’re talking about God. But when we’re talking about other subjects there’s a degree of openness present.

Reasons that we choose to self punish
Participant: So to deal with the injury that we have that we feel that God is punishing, is it just a matter of really allowing that grief that you feel like you’re being punished by God? Because I get a bit confused and I feel that I go into self punishment.

Can I show you how this belief that God is punishing gets established in us as a firm belief quite young? When we are being brought up by our parents, we generally learn quite early in our life that if we punish ourselves then we can escape  the punishment of others. We usually learn this quite young, when our parents need to give us some form of correction
when we’ve done something wrong, but instead of just giving us correction that’s based on love and truth, most of the time it’s also guilt based. In other words our parent’s trying to make us feel guilty so that we don’t do the thing again. And what we learn in that process is that it’s actually better to punish ourselves than to receive punishment

And what we learn in that process is that it’s actually better to punish ourselves than to receive punishment from another person. It actually feels easier. It also feels less destructive to our soul because when we receive punishment from the other person we have a heap of emotions, including total rejection, feelings of abandonment, and quite a lot of other very, very difficult feelings for a child to address if they were totally open emotionally. So what they learn to do instead is they learn to blame themselves for what went wrong and so we learn to punish ourselves. But if you think about it, the only reason why we punish ourselves is to avoid the prospect of being punished by others.

So emotionally, what we’re doing when we’re punishing ourselves is we’re avoiding the prospect of being punished eventually by God. We’re hoping that if we punish ourselves enough God will actually be easy on us. Now if you look at the Christian faiths for example that are on the planet at the moment, this concept is rife in most of these Christian faiths; on the planet at the moment this is rife in most of

Reasons that we choose to self punish


Reasons that we choose to self punish
Participant: So to deal with the injury that we have that we feel that God is punishing, is it just a matter of really allowing that grief that you feel like you’re being punished by God? Because I get a bit confused and Ifeel that I go into self punishment.

Can I show you how this belief that God is punishing gets established in us as a firm belief quite young? When we arebeing brought up by our parents, we generally learn quite early in our life that if we punish ourselves then we can escape the punishment of others. We usually learn this quite young, when our parents need to give us some form of correctionwhen we’ve done something wrong, but instead of just giving us correction that’s based on love and truth, most of the time it’s also guilt based. In other words our parent’s trying to make us feel guilty so that we don’t do the thing again. And what we learn in that process is that it’s actually better to punish ourselves than to receive punishment.

And what we learn in that process is that it’s actually better to punish ourselves than to receive punishment from another person. It actually feels easier. It also feels less destructive to our soul because when we receive punishment from theother person we have a heap of emotions, including total rejection, feelings of abandonment, and quite a lot of other very,vvery difficult feelings for a child to address if they were totally open emotionally. So what they learnvto do instead is theyvlearn to blame themselves for what went wrong and so we learn to punish ourselves. But if you think about it, the only reason why we punish ourselves is to avoid the prospect of being punished by others.

So emotionally, what we’re doing when we’re punishing ourselves is we’re avoiding the prospect of being punished  eventually by God. We’re hoping that if we punish ourselves enough God will actually be easy on us. Now if you look at the Christian faiths for example that are on the planet at the moment, this concept is rife in most of these Christian faiths;on the planet at the moment this is rife in most of Christian faiths, this whole idea of self-sacrifice and self punishment. They even have parts of different faiths, including part of the Catholic faith, where they actually whip themselves when they noticed they’ve done something wrong. And that way they demonstrate their repentance towards God, who would otherwise punish them if they hadn’t realised. There is a very strong group of people in the Catholic

religion who still believe in that as a form of repentance with their relationship with God.

So this whole punishing god situation has caused us to revert to this self-punishment. So what we end up doing is we end up noticing when we’ve done something wrong. We want to punish ourselves for doing that wrong thing and the reason why is because we feel afraid that somebody else will punish us if we don’t punish ourselves. But the problem with that is we never address the underlying causal reason, the actual reason why we did that wrong thing.
So for example, let’s say during the day you know you had the opportunity to steal and you took the opportunity, but the feeling inside of you was, “It’s just a small thing”. You don’t even know why you did it and you even feel frightened about why you did it. If you believe in a punishing God, you will have a higher likelihood to try and punish yourself about that.
You’ll feel guilty that you did it; you’ll feel bad about yourself. You’ll feel like you can’t talk to anybody else about it because if you do they’ll feel you’re guilty and they’ll feel you’re bad as well. So you try to hold on to it all inside of yourself, you dream about it for a few days, you can’t sleep and you think all sorts of things happen as a result.
Interestingly though, what doesn’t happen in most cases is looking for the reason why. The reason why we don’t look forthe reason why is because we’re so involved in punishing ourselves, avoiding a punishing God or avoiding other people from thinking that we’re bad. So we never get below that to actually find out the reason why we did it. And then of courseit doesn’t get resolved, so months or years later we do the same thing, and then that adds to the previous feeling. But then
it doesn’t get resolved again and can you see how the turmoil inside just builds and builds and builds without ever being resolved?

Fears and superstitions about God’s nature


Fears and superstitions about God’s nature In addition to that, because we believe God is a punishing God, most people have the belief within themselves that we’re not allowed to experience anger with God. And in fact most people are petrified of actually expressing anger and rage
towards God, and so they never do. They never even get below their addictions with God as a result. Remember anger is always a result of some addiction. So if we have rage with God but can’t even express it, and we are in complete denial of the rage that we have towards God, then it’s going to be very, very difficult for us to ever find the addiction we have with God, for example addictions about what we expect God to do for us, as to why we get so angry with God. It’s almost like we have this deep superstition inside of us that maybe God is like that. There’s this underlying feeling in most of society of superstition where they are a bit superstitious of God and therefore they don’t see God as a loving God, but somebody who’s going to require something of them at some point, and they’vegot to just be careful with their life. It’s interesting that when you talk to even the most confirmed atheist there are often these underlying feelings of superstition, which are in them that, are part of mankind’s history.

This superstitious nature that we have with God has caused us to do all sorts of very, very damaging things with God. For example, the whole concept that is presented in the Old Testament of the Bible that the Israelite race were allowed to destroy other races was all based on superstition about an angry God. So when another race sacrificed their children to God, the Israelite race condemned that and they decided that they were going to be God’s sword of correction for that other race. And the Israelite race, as they proceeded through what they called the “promised land”, they eventually
murdered whole races; fathers, mothers, children, and totally destroyed the race through their superstitions that they had with God. And I find it interesting that a lot of Christian principles are based on that kind of treatment of other people. So when you look at all of the different injuries and emotional feelings that we have with God, it’s pretty intense, hey?

Cycles of believing that God is feminine or masculine


Cycles of believing that God is feminine or masculine
Participant: Is that why we have trouble relating to the female side of God because most of these people have been male?
Yes, very much so. In fact this is a major problem on the planet as well. By the way there were times in history when people believed God was female only and not male. We went through these cycles historically where the female was viewed to be god, and if you talked about God it was always as “God our mother” and never a father. And mankind has been through these cycles periodically where we believe God’s the mother, and then there was a rejection of that, and then there was an acceptance of God being the father. And then there was a rejection of that and then there was acceptance of God being mother, but never both masculine and feminine at the same time.
And as a result of that there have been periods of time in humanity where women completely dominated the planet.

They were involved in all aspects of politics, all aspects of religion and men were not allowed to be involved in those things. And then of course there was this backlash by men as a result of that unbalance and then men used their strength and their will to overcome those belief systems. So we now have a male dominated society, but historically we’ve gone through cycles, where women have dominated, men have dominated, women have dominated, men have dominated, and there’s been no equality through these cycles. And in fact if you look at some of the religious artefacts that you can see through archaeology, you can see how much women were revered in historical terms through history, but not so much now. So if you look at all the deities that are involved in religions now, it’s only the Hindu religion really as a major religion that believes in feminine deities. For the Christian religion it’s all masculine deities and for the Muslim religion it’s all masculine deities. And all of these arebecause of the general swing in the population as to who they accept God to be. Historically there are many artefacts that archaeologists have found that prove that there were feminine deities in many religions on the planet and in fact some

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different races on the planet had only feminine deities; no masculine deities at all. And these were cycles that the planet went through in terms of their viewpoint of God.
So if you add up all of these problems, you can see that the biggest issues we have are with God generally. So when we start talking about a relationship with God, everyone’s going, “Yeah, yeah, yeah, okay, okay.” and there’s not much of a connection to it because there are just so many obstacles that we have within us that we’ve got to get over before we contemplate having a relationship with God. And the obstacles are pretty major obstacles.

Other impediments to our relationship with God


Other impediments to our relationship with God
Imposition of gender based emotional beliefs upon God  On top of that, most people have a lot of emotional injuries towards their parents. So if you think about the average
person you’ve got different emotions that you have towards your dad, and different emotions you have towards your mum and when you look back at your childhood you can see how your dad treated you and your mum treated you. Now if your dad treated you violently, then you would start to also accept that the masculine part of God was going to treat youviolently. If mum was aloof then you feel that the feminine part of God is aloof, and you start imposing the emotional belief systems that you’ve gained in your environment upon God as well. So now besides having all of these issues with  God about God’s Nature and all of those kinds of things, we’re now adding to that a whole group of emotions, which I would call gender based emotional beliefs.

Now when I do a presentation about God, they are still for me, the most difficult presentations to give. Mostly because all of these particular belief systems are in the soul of almost every person on this planet, even if they intellectually believe they don’t have those belief systems. As a result of that, any discussion about God or relationship with God is generally very difficult to conduct with a group of people. And if you think about all of those injuries, what I’m basically saying is that the person we have the most injuries with is God. And then add to that, you’ve got some crazy nutter who calls

himself Jesus talking about this God, then you’ve got a whole additional set of injuries to work your way through with regards to that person as well and so it becomes very, very difficult to actually be open in a discussion about God.  In addition if you examine it, the average person I interact with is either male or female, is that not right? So if you’re talking in a one on one interaction, we’re either interacting with another male or a female in my case. And in your case it is exactly the same you are either interacting with a man or a woman. So when you’re interacting with a man or a woman,
you can at least dismiss half of the injuries because half of the injuries are probably with the male and if you’re interacting with a woman then you don’t have to worry about those particular injuries; when you are interacting with that person only the injuries that involve you with the female are going to be involved if you are interacting with the female.

So immediately, with our interactions on the planet, even if no addictions are involved, we’ve already got half the amount of injuries than we’ve got with God. Because God is both masculine and feminine, it’s a sum total of all of our injuries to both genders that we’re dealing with when we’re dealing with God. So what we find then is that, even in our interaction with individuals, we are far more open than we would be if we were interacting with God.

God does not meet our addictions
In addition to that, we’re often involved in addictive relationships with individuals. So we’re often attracted to a person because of what they give us. Because we have a nice feeling when we talk to that person but we don’t have a very nice feeling when we talk to that person. So which person are we going to talk to the most? The person who we have a nice feeling with. And if that happens to be some kind of addiction that causes us to be in that attraction, and not just a pure state of love that the person is in, then straight away I’m going to feel even more attracted to discussing something with that individual and as a result more open to what they’re saying than I would be talking to someone who I’m not very attracted to.
Now, if you think about that with God, God does not meet addictions. God doesn’t meet any addictions. So any time that we’re attracted to an individual because of the addictions they meet in us that cause us to feel an attraction to them, we can’t have that relationship with God either. So then there’s another set of emotional issues we have towards God – God does not meet my addictions. Because remember God wants you to grow and if you are meeting your addictions, you’re not going to grow very rapidly. You’re going to be stagnant in your growth.
So a relationship with God now has all of these impediments involved in it in comparison to a relationship with an individual.
Giving other people god-like statuses And so what people started to do on Earth was they started to feel like it was totally impossible to have a relationship with God at all. And what they did instead was they started making certain people who they believed were holy into gods, while those persons lived on Earth. So persons like Buddha for example were made into a god, because Buddha was a person who seemed to be outwardly spiritual to the majority of people who surrounded him at the time, and seemed to have this connection with God that nobody else seemed to have. In fact Buddha himself didn’t actually believe in a

personal god anyway, which was also very handy for most of the people who were around him at the time, he believed that god was more like an energy system, like the universe itself.

Our souls have an inbuilt desire for God and our soulmate

Mary: Just from what you are saying… I understand why people want to deitise or make a person into god because they feel so blocked to God for the above reasons, but doesn’t that also indicate that within each of us there is an inbuilt yearning for God?

Of course, underlying all of this is that we all do want to connect to God at some point. There is this sort of hole in humanity that exists; there are two holes that exist in your soul. When I say it’s a hole, it’s more like an underlying inbuilt desire that exists in your soul, but one hole that exists in your soul is a desire to connect with your creator. That’s one of the holes. The second hole that most people don’t have fulfilled in them is a desire to connect totheir perfect partner.
That’s the second major hole that exists in our relationships and so what we do, because there’s so much pain associated generally with those two particular issues, those two particular longings that we have that are inside of our soul, we then substitute relationships for those particular relationships.
So for most people they finish up substituting a relationship with a human in place of God. Now for many of us, it’s substituting our father for our relationship with God. In other words for many people their father takes on the role of the authority, so they then try to do whatever their father wants; they try to please their father and so forth. If it’s not their father then it’s usually a religious organisation of some kind that is meant to be God’s representative. They then have a
relationship with that religious organisation, which is a part of them trying to work through their issues with their relationship with God.
And as a result of that, many people came to accept his belief systems and because his belief systems were more loving than the average belief systems on the planet, they believed that Buddha himself was in a more loving place, which he was, and therefore they started to follow the man and started to appoint him as god in place of God. They also did the same with myself in the first century, because I was at-one with God and displayed the characteristics or nature of God in a pure place when I was at-one with God, they then started to treat me as if I was saying that I was God, which I always denied. In fact there are many records in the Bible itself that I’ve denied it, but they still want to believe that I am God and the main reason why they want to believe that is because they want to have a human they can relate to as if they’re God, because we’re so blocked to God. So we want to have somebody who we can see, feel, touch, and work out, “Oh that’s
what God must be like.

The Development of beliefs that God is wrathful, punishing and cruel


The development of beliefs that God is wrathful, punishing and cruel
As a result (thirdly), there grew a lot of concepts about God: that God is wrathful. In fact the concept about God that grew then was that God was in a rage with mankind was the concept, and because these spirits acted out in a rageful manner towards the people on Earth, this concept was reinforced through the belief system.

RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD – WHY WE RESIST GOD JESUS (AJ MILLER)Fourthly what would happen is that because these people were now in a state where they were actively working against God’s Loving Laws, there was a higher and more powerful Law of Attraction in a negative direction. Now what that meant was that the Law of Attraction now was bringing to them individually events that made these people felt like they were being harmed by the Law of Attraction itself, and therefore being harmed by God. And so what most people started believing was that God wanted to hurt them and that God had to be appeased, God had to be worshipped and also appeased in some way. So eventually people started sacrificing their own children to God in order to appease God; to  make God’s wrath go away.

And so there was this whole idea that God was going to punish them and the only way that God wouldn’t punish them would be that you had to appease God, you had to make God feel good and then God wouldn’t harm you. And so eventually what they started doing was sacrificing their own children. Sacrificing of animals was very common, and the whole concept grew that the very first fruits that you received off any tree or bush or crop all had to be given to God, so
you had to burn it or destroy it so that it would appease God.
And then of course the Earth went through cycles as well, cycles of change, cycles of major cataclysmic change, similar to what I feel is coming soon upon the Earth as well. These cycles of cataclysmic change also caused these people to believe that, that was God’s punishment of people on the planet as well and this started to reinforce these beliefs. And so what they started to feel was that the events that their soul was attracting, instead of seeing it as a direct result of their own unloving behaviour, they started seeing it as God punishing them and God started looking more and more to them like a cruel God, someone who wanted to make their life difficult from the moment they were born basically.
Now because many people still had a feeling that God existed, they then had to create religious structures that enabled them to safely believe these things about God. So what they did was they started creating religious structures where they started to feel like God could be justified and they started actually creating religions surrounding these belief systems that
God was like this. And so all through human history and the so-called “Christian” viewpoint of God or the so-called “Muslim” viewpoint of God or “Hindu” viewpoint of God now, many of these viewpoints have been around far longer than those particular religions have ever been established, for literally hundreds of thousands of years these viewpoints have been around on the planet. And as a result, the viewpoint of God has been just imposed upon the planet over and over and over and over and over again. Other impediments to our relationship with God

The children of the first human couple became dark spirits


The children of the first human couple became dark spirits who people believed were God
Now then what happened was that obviously Amon and Aman, the first human couple started having children, and
through their union they had children and grand children obviously. Now during this phase as well, some of these children
passed into the spirit world. Now in the early times of our existence it took many hundreds of years for a person to pass
and there have been records in early history where some people lived almost a 1000 years in terms of time on the earth.
But that very, very rapidly also degraded, because of the degradation of the soul condition, and very rapidly we went
down to a 100 years of life on Earth. And after that it became even worse and eventually it went down so that the
longevity of the average person was around 20 years at some points in human history. So the soul condition had been so
degraded by this stage that the average person could only live 20 to 30 years before dying from old age. So that shows
you how negative the planet was in that state. 

The first human couple had children who passed into the spirit world
These people passed over into the spirit world, and because the general population of the Earth at the time was more open
to spirit interference, these people began imposing their feelings upon the planet as well. This caused a rapid degradation
on the planet and as a result of that, many people on Earth started believing that these people were God. And these people
were in a rage with mankind, they were manipulative, controlling, punishing; they were constantly trying to make things
hard for people on the Earth. They wanted all of their addictions met and they tried to connect to people on Earth who
would allow the connection, and they tried to influence people in a very negative direction

The history of mankind’s relationship with God


The history of mankind’s relationship with God
The first human couple chose rebellion and self reliance. When God created the first human couple, and obviously when I say created them, he created the bodies in which they existed. So he created the first couples’ bodies. So, both of the bodies, the physical bodies and the spirit bodies were
created by God, directly. The soul of course was already created by God, and the first human couple incarnated.

When you talk to them, they don’t have a memory of being young like babies. They just incarnated and began their experience in an adult looking body, and as a result of that they didn’t really have the same experience that many of us have had in the sense that we were born and we slowly absorbed things through our environment. They still absorbed things through their environment, but they weren’t born in the same manner that we were born.

God created the physical (PB) and spiritual (SB) bodies and the soul of the first human couple
However, this first human pair decided before they even had children of their own that they didn’t want to have a relationship with God. And to be accurate, it’s not probably what they decided. What they decided, in an accurate statement is they wanted to be the same as God. So they wanted to have an elevated condition that was exactly the sameas God’s condition, without having to do anything for it. They felt that they had enough intelligence, that they had enough knowledge that God had given them through a process over the years that God had been spending time with them; that eventually they felt that they should be able to be God themselves and that they didn’t need God to make rules for them orto determine things for them.And so what they did is they chose, you could say, rebellion and self-reliance.

In this process of choosing rebellion and self-reliance, they ended up in this state where they couldn’t connect to God anymore because they’d chosen to reject God. And in this state of rebellion and self-reliance, they began immediately to degrade in their condition of love. So they started to degrade and go in a negative direction when it came to their condition of love because to make that decision they didn’t understand enough about love already to even make that
decision. So God allowed them of course to go ahead with that rebellion and that self reliance. God allows us to do anything we choose with our will.

Participant: When they appeared what condition were they in to start with?  You would classify it as a sixth sphere condition. They were perfectly made and their soul was free of all emotional
injuries.

The first human couple wanted to be gods themselves, and so chose rebellion and self reliance
They didn’t make this choice out of an emotional injury. They made the choice based on a desire, rather than an emotional injury. So that also indicates that a person who’s in the sixth sphere can make a choice out of harmony with love. So it’s not impossible to make a choice out of harmony with love even when you’ve become perfected and that’s something that most people don’t understand. You can use your will in any direction, so you can always choose to use your will in a different direction than you’ve used it ten minutes ago.

And if you think about the course of an average day, for most of us we use our will sometimes positively or lovingly and other times very negatively, even in the course of one day. Sometimes we’re in a rageful place or angry with someone or wanting to hurt somebody, and then we go into this feeling of sorrow about that, and repentance about that, and feel sad that we’ve done that. And then something else comes up and before we know it we’re back into another angry place or
something like that where we want to hurt somebody or we yell at somebody or so forth. So just in the course of an average day even the feelings in us do that, even if we don’t verbalise those feelings, oftentimes we have those feelings.

It was a little different here though of course because the original couple didn’t have the emotional injuries that would have dictated to them to do these kinds of things. They made an active choice; it was a choice to be God basically. In that process they went into rebellion and self reliance, they no longer wanted to hear from God about love, and no longer
wanted to learn about love from God. As a result of that they had to rely on their own interpretations, and as they then had children after that point, they then imposed exactly the same emotional injuries upon their children. And their children very rapidly degraded in condition as a result of the walking away from God

RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD – WHY WE RESIST GOD JESUS (AJ MILLER)
Now what happened though, there was this idea of rebellion: if we look at the emotional injuries that are on the planet right now with regard to God, the number one emotional injury is rebellion. We don’t like law; we don’t like God telling us what God’s Laws are, we want to go through the process of discovering it all ourselves. Even a little tiny child has this emotion most of the time. If you think back to when you were bringing up your children, by the time the child is two years of age, they go through the “terrible twos”, which are often this spirit of rebellion already being imposed upon its environment that is already present within the child because it’s an emotional injury we’ve carried down for millennia; thousands of years.

The second emotional injury that got established there and then was also this emotional injury of self-reliance, in other words feeling that, “The only person that I can rely on is myself. I can’t really rely upon a partner because they might leave me, they might cheat on me, and they might do something like that, so I can’t rely on a partner. I can’t rely on my friends because sometimes my friends have different agendas than what I have and so therefore I can’t really rely on them.” And in the end most people finish up having a feeling inside of them that the only person they can really rely on is themselves.